It's not just a move ... it's our dreams

Wow .. only 5 more days until we move. This is the first time I've ever been nervous about a move ... I guess because this time, it's not just a move. It's our dreams. I'm not worried or nervous about failing at anything though ... I count on making mistakes simply because that's how we will learn the how's & what for's of our new lifestyle. I think I'm nervous just because this move is "the" destination we've planned through out our entire marriage. How huge it is to grasp something that has always seemed so far away.

We're hustling to get some (minor), last minute things done ... but for the most part, we're ready to head home ... home ... what a powerful, new meaning that word holds for me. As of Tuesday morning, our vehicle turns in to a time machine ... & is escorting us back to the days of "Little House On The Prairie." Our lives now, though slower paced than most will shift to the days of our pioneer ancestors. Water heated by the sun or a fire for the first few weeks ... dinner by lanterns, cooking with a camp stove or fire pit until we purchase the most beautiful & effective woodstove ever built. I'm sure we will all gain a greater understanding of, "early to bed, early to rise." The anticipated sense of accomplishment as we plan our crops .. as well as which animals to raise for food.

I've been on the verge of tears all day .. some times a few strays make their way down my cheeks. It's all becoming so real. I am filled with excitment, wonder, amazement and a small touch of fear ... fear because we are moving in to tornado alley. From what we've been told, the area we are moving to has the highest rate of tornadoes .. those most are not "that" damaging due to the trees & rolling hills that get in the way of them picking up speed. Still ... just thoughts of the possibilities could cause me to panic ... so I spend my days thanking God for our safety & His protection on our land.

We won't be completely sheltered from the world or the present times. Our laptop will offer a window to those who want to see how our lives progress ... or should I say, step back in time. We'll be emailing, blogging and playing on Facebook when we have extra time .. HA .. I'm wondering if that will become a thing of the past (at least for a while). We have a TV and a DVD player .. planning on watching only on days we can't be outside due to weather & even then, maybe only a half hour per day. The kids share hand held video games, that won't depleat our power source so that's ok. Hopefully though, they'll desire to learn new skills & find new ways to have fun ... building bird houses, horseback riding, watching a calf being born, maybe just sitting under an apple tree to read a book ... or a moment to gaze out on God's glorious landscape.

I just can't wait to get home!